Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Review: Little Mercies (SPOILER ALERT)
I was unable to finish reading this book, but this is not a negative review.
How's that for confusing.
I read One Breath Away a few months ago. I picked it up because it dealt with a school shooting, and that's what I was writing about at the time. I wanted to see how other writers handled the subject. I liked Heather's writing, so I was happy to see her new book Little Mercies, offered for review. I requested and was granted an e-copy. I immediately began reading.
I knew the book would deal with a hard subject. I don't shy away from the hard stuff. Hence my latest manuscript involving a school shooting. But, I digress. The writing was wonderful. I wanted to know what would happen, how these two lives would eventually converge and change one another.
Then I got to the chapter where the baby is left in the car. She is left in the car, due to a series of events that led to her being present without her mother realizing she was present. It was not sadistic or even negligent. It was an accident. An absent-minded morning intersects with an emergency and leads to personal disaster. It is the stuff of which good fiction is made.
I could hardly breathe.
The thing is, I have been that mom who forgets things. I am often absent minded. So, as I read, I could see this happening to me.
Not now. I mean, my sons are 10 and 12. Trust me, there is no way to be in a car with them and not know they are there. You can smell them.
But something like that could happen. I could absent-mindedly destroy my life or someone else's.
This is a fear of mine already. Apparently, it is a stronger fear than I realized, because I could not keep reading. I tried. My husband watched and begged me to quit. My whole chest felt like someone was wrapping me in chains and pulling tight.
So I deleted the file from my Kindle and gave up.
Heather is a good writer. She is a good storyteller. She made this real enough to give me panic attacks.