Friday, January 29, 2010

Friday Felcities - 1/29/10

Welcome to Friday Felicities in memory of Natalie York, hosted by Becky.

Friday Felicities

Sparkly Toms
Labyrinths of all shapes and sizes
$1 sale at Resale Therapy
Giving gifts
Sending birthday cards
Breve steamers with vanilla and honey


Thursday, January 28, 2010

Currently: Birthweek Edition

Current Books:  I am almost finished reading Outlander and will then start Thin Places. I am also working through Power of a Praying Parent, God Whispers and The Way of the Mystics. Welcome to my current unfocused state of bookdom.  It has been like this since Andi's car accident.  My mind, which is ADHD anyhow, has opted to jet from one literary interest to another and I cannot seem to hang on.

Current Playlist: Holly just introduced me to the music of Lucy Kaplansky.  And I am loving a particular song by The Embrace (Where do you hide your wings, when you're down here with me...).  

Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Gilmore Girls marathons. 

Current Color: Metallics

Current Fetish: Shoes.  Loving me some fab shoes lately.  I blame Aimee.

Current Food: Have been liking burgers lately.  Had my first 5 Guys burger earlier this month.  YUM!

Current Drink:  I am trying to drink more water.

Current Favorite Favorite: Celebrating my birthday.

Current Wishlist: Umm... cute rainboots and a flash drive that hooks on my keychain.

Current Needs: To pay off my dental bill and then have more dental work done.

Current Triumph: A couple of new publications.  WOOT!

Current Bane-of-my-Existence: A couple of minor illnesses that have slowed me down.

Current Celebrity Crush: Milo.

Current Indulgence: Consignment shopping.

Current Mood: Happy.

Current #1 Blessing: My husband.  I love Corey more and more every year we are together.

Current Slang or Saying: Ai yi yi!

Current Outfit: Pinkish colored Ann Taylor long-sleeve tee, black jeans, grey sweater.

Current Links: Poetry Foundation is awesome. The Roller Babies.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Friday Felcities - 1/22/10

Friday Felicities

Cafe 212 gift card
Lunch with my husband
Visiting Reed's books
Red Asian shoes
New friends
Sending thank you cards
A new fabulous consignment shop


Monday, January 18, 2010

Ramblings that Turn into Something More

A long weekend full of miracles.
Andi opened her eyes.
Leila's Aunt Mimi was pulled from the Caribbean Market.
She is alive and being taken to Miami.
The boys are watching Jungle Junction.
Is it just me or is there a Star of David in this show?
That is pretty cool.
The "Wheelers" are actually from Baum's Oz books.
They weren't very nice creatures.
The kids are out of school today. 
I am thinking of going on a "writer's date."
I feel like walking downtown and maybe doing some writing.
I am looking forward to Mystics tomorrow.
We are talking about St John of the Cross.
Did I mention that Andi opened her eyes?
And Aunt Mimi is alive?
2010 is the Year of Trust.
We are just over 2 weeks in and God is already rocking it.
Not what I expected though.
I need to reread Hosea this week.
Jen brought the book up in reference to a situation.
A situation that will require lots of trusting God.
After losing Natalie, I found it hard to pray for miracles.
Faith has always been one of my Spiritual Gifts on those tests.
I took one this week.
Faith had dropped to the 5th spot.
It has never been about doubting His existence,
or even His plan to bring us hope and a future.
It's about doubting my knowledge of Him.
It was about doubting that I could predict Him.
And I can't predict Him.
At all.
Hence my verse for the year...
Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up." Daniel 3:16-18

That is where my struggle has fallen. I have always felt you should pray with expectation. If you pray for rain, prepare the fields. But, when Natalie died, I wondered about that. When Uncle Greg got sick, I did not doubt God could heal him. Of course God could heal him. I doubted He WOULD heal him.

And He didn't.

I told Leila I wasn't sure how to pray for miracles anymore. It was standing at Andi's bedside that made me start believing again. I could feel God in her room. And when Leila called, something inside me knew that Mimi was alive. It felt scary to pray for her to be found. Because what if my feeling was wrong. How would I feel if God didn't do this thing... this miracle.

I still don't know how to predict God. But I am learning to trust my intuition. You see, when Nat got sick, I never felt like she would live. I have never said that here. Everyone was praying for a miracle. I felt sure she was leaving us. I felt like this meant I had no faith. I had the same experience with Uncle Greg. I am seeing now that it wasn't a lack of faith. I still knew what God COULD do. I just did not feel Him saying He was GOING to do it.

With Andi, when Corey was praying over her, I kept my eyes open. I watched her face. And as her eyes twitched, I KNEW she would open them.  And she has.  It was never my faith in God that was unstable.  It was my faith in myself.  I don't need to PREDICT what God will do.  I just need to trust Him.  When He does speak to me, I need to trust what He says.  And, if He is silent, that doesn't mean there is something wrong with my faith.  It is just time to be still and know that He is God, know that what He chooses to do is best. His silence is a call for me to trust Him.

It all boils down to trust.

Welcome to 2010.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Friday Felcities - 1/15/10

In honor of Natalie.

Friday Felicities

A wee thrifting trip yesterday
Michelle sending me Gilmore Girls DVDs
Neon pink sweater
Helping Corey with DNow
My animal print flats from Target
It's my Birth-month!!!


Monday, January 11, 2010

Listen & Trust

I love the book of Romans.  Today's tidbit?  A great verse for my Year of Trust...

Before you trust you have to listen. Romans 10:17

What a great reminder this morning, caught up in the rush of life around me and feeling a wee bit overwhelmed by all that must be done and could be done and should get done...

Happy Monday!


Friday, January 8, 2010

Friday Felcities - 1/8/10

Friday Felicities, in honor of the amazing Natalie Rose York.  Go visit Becky and sign the Mr. Linky!

Friday Felicities

Looking at my new tattoo
The fireplace at Atl Bread
Thrift shopping with Mom
Thrift shopping with Ashley
Silly books
Making Mom laugh
Hugs from my boys
Pictures of the kids in the snow
Photo booth fun with Savannah
New sweater from Target
Cuddling with Corey on a snow day


Thursday, January 7, 2010

Long Drive Home

I drove home from SC yesterday.  I drove from SC to Jackson and had the blessing of holding Andi's hand and praying over her with Sherry.  She looks so beautiful.  After, Suzanne and I drove from Jackson to Tupelo and I was glad to slide between warm sheets in my own bed.

The pictures posted of the car Andi was pulled from...  they are stuck in my head.  I was thinking of them so much as I started my trip, yesterday, that I found a poem forming, unbidden, in my brain.  I finally had to pull over at a BP and scribble the lines into my notebook.

That was after
the mangled metal...
after they'd cut
through chrome
and steel
to birth her body,
and barely
The photo is only after
and fireworks
and somersaults -
after the shock
of an 18-wheeled wall
of never-saw-it-coming,
a wide expanse
of I-am-so-sorry.
I can only swallow
the lump
in my throat that matches
the after-collision lump
of white car.


Visit Andi's Caring Bridge Site.  Leave prayers and scripture - encouragement.

Monday, January 4, 2010


Please visit Andi's CaringBridge
It is amazing she is alive at all.
Her beautiful mother is amazing.
Sherry's faith and trust is an inspiration to me, right now.
I am in South Carolina.
I hitched a ride with the gorgeous Karen.
The trip FLEW by.
Karen, we should drive cross country.
Bet we'd never run out of conversation.
I got my tattoo yesterday.
It is the Hebrew word for beauty.
The particular word found in Isaiah 61.
It refers to a "crown of beauty."
Or a tiara.
Tiara = Natalie.
Ashley and I got our tattoos together.
Mine is my early bday present from her.
Hers is her early bday present to herself.
She will be 25 and I will be 28.
We have known each other since I was 6.
She was 3.
Her mother taught me to love craft supplies.
I have spent a lot of time, this trip, cuddling Ashley's son.
We saw Nine.
Great music and costumes.
And choreography.
Now, I am in Panera Bread.
I am going to submit some poems.
Have a beautiful day!


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