Thursday, July 30, 2009


am: content today.

think: a lot about what God is doing in our lives right now - where He is leading us.

know: who I am and who my friends are.

hate: that so many people are so riddled with hate.

don't: want to see my husband hurting anymore.

can't: fix it.

will: trust God for the "how."

won't: worry about tomorrow, for today has enough worry of its own.

miss: having my four best friends within miles of my house.

fear: it being my fault.

feel: so full of so much, and I want to write it all down and share it all with everyone.

hear: Haydn playing in the living room.

smell: popcorn from the rainy day movie time.

wonder: what I will write here in a year.

regret: only things I didn't do or didn't say.

love: my husband more and more each day. I know that sounds cheesy and cliche, but it is true.

dream: strange things that I tend to remember in spurts throughout the day.

care: about my sons and my stepdaughter, my husband and my family, unborn babies, neglected children, hurting people, broken relationships...

always: feel like I need to be doing more.

am not: sure what God is up to, but I am along for the ride.

believe: that God keeps His promises.

sing: loud, with the Wicked soundtrack, in my van

smile: a lot.

laugh: often. It is good for you.

collect: Oz stuff.

play: Bejeweled 2 on my iPod.

write: poetry.

await: reunion.

cook: some.

trust: my husband.

intend: to be faithful.

search: for Heaven.

look: younger than I am, I guess. But I am happy with my appearance, most days.

shout: to be heard above the roar.

whisper: in church, to tell my kids to sit still.

conquer: worries.

listen: to the still small voice on the breeze.

live: every single day.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Currently: July 2009

Current Books: Sweeping Up Glass by Carolyn Wall (for review) and Cold Tangerines by Shauna Niequist (borrowed from Mandy). I also just bought Wild Mind by Natalie Goldberg, for writing inspiration, and Amazon Vine sent me Donald Miller's newest book for review. I finished PoemCrazy by Susan Goldsmith Wooldridge and want to get my hands on her new book.

Current Playlist: the mix CD Lana made me.

Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Ben and Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake ice cream. I cannot stop eating this stuff. It is heaven in a pint-sized cardboard container.

Current Color: Dark teal, like the pool at the Craig's last night.

Current Fetish: Organization. Crates and baskets and shelves and boxes.

Current Drink: Love me some Diet Pepsi.

Current Food: Pizza rolls.

Current Favorite Favorite: Being at home for more than a few hours at a time.

Current Wishlist: Bookshelves for the living room, pedicure

Current Needs: Ya know, I can't think of anything to put here. Our bills are paid. We have plenty of food in the house. The kids are healthy.

Current Triumph: Completely cleaning out and reorganizing the boys' bedroom (with their help, of course)

Current Bane of my Existence: People who disregard others so they can have what they want.

Current Celebrity Crush: No one. But, I am curious to see who will be cast as Scott in The Beautiful and the Damned.

Current Indulgence: I got up before six and went to Starbucks to study my Bible and read. I like the early morning quiet.

Current Mood: Content.

Current #1 Blessing: Corey.

Current Slang or Saying: dunno

Current Outfit: capris and a tank top.

Current Excitement: A prayer retreat I may go on, date night with hubby this week

Current Link: Steph's new blog for kids' activities

Friday, July 24, 2009

Friday Felcities 7/24/09

I have been lax in posting my Felicities, since I have been out of town and online only sporadically. I am home now, though, and glad to be back into some form of routine. And, here it is, Friday. So, check out Becky's site to join us for Friday Felicities in memory of Natalie Rose York.

Friday Felicities

Lunch with Mary
New writing book
Amazon Vine
The library
Friends' generous hearts
Corey being home


Thursday, July 23, 2009

Stage IV

Stage IV could have lots of meanings. It could mean I am going to see a play at a cool new theater. It could be that our church is moving forward in a planning schedule. It could have something to do with a TV studio.

Unfortunately, it means my Uncle's cancer has spread. A lot.

Mom called and gave me this news yesterday. I wasn't able to say it out loud until yesterday evening. It took me until this morning to say it out loud to Corey. It feels quite unreal, honestly. Just... unreal. I am swiftly moved back in time... sitting here... reading Natalie's latest update... cancer. I am taken back to the couch in my sister-in-law's living room, where I was when I got the text with a single word, "inoperable." I am taken back to my bedroom in Brandon, where I woke to a call from Dana and news that I knew before I even answered the phone.

Sometimes, loss seems inevitable. But, we fight anyway. We fight, because we are made that way. Because we were created to live, and we will do anything to live. We fight, because we have to. There seems to be no other way. We fight because there are people we love and don't want to leave. There are still things to say, hugs to give, talks to have. There are jokes to tell and movies to see and flowers to pick. So we will fight.

We will fight.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Publication Never Gets Old

Everyday Musings is now available at A poem I wrote about David learning to talk is in this book. If you look at the authors list on the Amazon page, you will see my name is SECOND! WOOT

Pick up your copy!


Wednesday, July 15, 2009

What You Remember

"What you remember," Katherine reminds herself, "is not what they think you
will remember."

- Kris Radish, Annie Freeman's Fabulous Traveling Funeral

I am halfway through my summer visit to Columbia. It has been a very good visit. I always need this time with my Mama and with my friends here. I read the above snippet tonight in a book Cheryl sent to me in memory of Nattie-Pie. It made me think about the experiences I have had this summer and this week. Here are some things that feel memorable from this week:

A conversation with Corey today - to be able to talk with him and cry with him and be so very much in love with him after 8 years is amazing.

Going to see Harry Potter with Kimmi at midnight. We were giggly as we got ready to go in our Potter shirts and silly grins. We laughed AND cried through the movie. The memorable part was not the movie but the time with one of my dearest friends.

Spending an entire day with my sister, hanging out, switching phones for Mom and Wayne, meeting her friends... We have had a rough road of sisterhood, but she is an amazing girl (woman, even) and I am proud to know her and call her family.

Thrifting with Mom, Chris, Ashley and Carrie. Always fun.

Swaddling and cuddling and feeding Caleb - my baby burrito. Ashley let me stay overnight and take care of him. I am in love. He is beautiful and perfect and Ashley is already an amazing mommy.

There are more things to remember, but I was up till 4 this morning thanks to the Potter field trip and too much nighttime cola. I think I need to get some sleep now.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Common Ground Montgomery

While in Montgomery, last week, I went with a bunch of teenagers to help out at the community center being build by Common Ground Montgomery. I was blown away by what a wonderful ministry this is. I know some of my readers are in Montgomery, so if you are one of them, check out this mission:

Common Ground Montgomery

Get involved in this worthwhile mission. So many people are being helped through this. And Christ's love is clearly present in those who are actively participating. This ministry fits my life motto so well...

Love God. Love Neighbor.


Simple Woman's Daybook - 7/13

Outside my window... there is a drizzly sort of rain. Boo!

I am thinking... of babies and friends and what to wear to see Harry Potter tomorrow night.

I am thankful for... how my Mama and stepdad let us take over their house when we are here.

From the kitchen... Mama's home cooking all week. Heaven.

I am wearing... my fab Gap jeans and a green shirt.

I am reading... 1 Timothy, Perfection by Julie Metz, and PoemCrazy by Susan Wooldridge

I am hoping... that Ashley and Brett have a lovely evening and get some real rest while I play with their beautiful baby boy.

I am creating... lots of memories this summer.

I am hearing... Haydn playing the Wii.

Around the house... My doggie is so cute, curled up in his little ball on the couch. We are having a lazy day at Grandma's house.

One of my favorite things... coming home to a clean house. I have the best husband in the whole wide world.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Playing with Ashley and cuddling Caleb, seeing HP with Kimmi, hanging out with Rebecca Anne, going to Daddy-O's, shopping with my sister, etc...

Monday, July 6, 2009


My Uncle Greg, the one I just blogged about, ACCEPTED CHRIST!

Excuse me while the angels and I rejoice!!!!!!


Saturday, July 4, 2009


From top to bottom, MP and I with...
The Wizard, Madame Morrible, Glinda, and Elphaba.
It was....

Friday, July 3, 2009

Friday Felcities 7/3/09

Becky made this beautiful new graphic for the Friday Felicities Meme. Beck is so talented. She is also the lovely lady who made my blog header.

So, here we are again. Another Friday. This summer is flying by. I am glad fro these Friday reminders of all the little happies in my life. Natalie was so good at being thankful for her blessings, even in the middle of divorce and depression and financial struggles, struggles with her son's health and with school and work and ... Nat had a rough time of it, but she kept her eyes on Jesus. Always on Jesus. So, in her memory, on Fridays, we continue the Meme she began and we post our daily happies on our blogs. Please, join us.

Friday Felicities

Diet Coke
Church courtyard
Swimming with the boys
Wicked soundtrack
Texting with Renee
Design team meeting at Nancy's

Honestly, I have had so many blessing this week. I don't know how I could manage to list them all.



Savannah is 9 years old now. One year from double-digits and a couple more years from the teen phase. WOW! It is always amazing to me when I see Savannah's facial expressions on my boys' faces and when I hear her giggle coming from Haydn's mouth. Savannah is not my biological child and Corey and I don't get to see her nearly enough, but she is clearly a part of our family. David asks for her almost daily. When we are blessed by a visit with her, she and Haydn become inseparable. She actually plays more roughly than the boys, if that is possible. She flings herself at her Daddy in full knowledge that he will catch her and will not let her be hurt.

Thanks to my stepdad, I know a thing or two about what a girl does and does not want from a stepparent. For instance, I know I am not her mother. She has a mom who loves her very much, and she loves her mom very much. But I can still love her and treat her as if she were my own. It is a fine line, but one worth walking on. I wanted my stepdad to love me, respect me, and treat me just as well as his daughter, but I never wanted him to replace my daddy. So, I try to do this for Savannah, as much as possible. I also make sure she gets time for just her and Daddy. He got to take her to dinner and a movie for Valentine's Day. Also, there is always a place for her in our home. She does not have to sleep on the couch or the floor. She has her own room and her own bed. Girls need their privacy from little brothers.

Savannah is a brilliant little girl. Like Haydn, she is a thinker. You can see the gears moving behind her eyes when she gets quiet. She has long curly blond hair and looks almost identical to a picture of Corey's sister that hangs in my in-laws' living room. She loves books and I love buying them for her. She is full of laughter and energy. She is my Webkinz buddy. Once, we went shopping together and got pink ponies. She named hers Heather and I named mine Savannah and we send each other notes and gifts through our Webkins accounts. She is the only reason I keep up a Webkinz account.

We don't get to see her as often as we'd like. But, we do pray for her and her mommy everyday. The boys have even done a labyrinth walk praying for Savannah. They love their big sister.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Uncle Greg

Please send up a few prayers for my family today, if you are the praying type. Mom just called to tell me my Uncle Greg has been diagnosed with cancer. At this point, I have very little information, but I will be there to see him soon.

Uncle Greg is a part of so many happy memories in my life. One of my favorite memories of Granny is when she would beat him with her purse for cussing in her presence. *snicker* I love an old gal who can still kick when she wants to. Granny never did lose her spirit.

Greg is a favorite to all of his nieces and nephews. He has bounced back from more than his fair share of struggles already, and I am feeling confident he will conquer this one as well. Still, my stepdad is pretty worried and shaken up, which has set his blood pressure on the rise. This is his BABY brother, and I know I would be a wreck if my baby sister were suffering like this. Please pray for his sense of peace and confidence in whatever the future may hold. I am praying that he will feel strong so that he can be the big brother I know he wants to be. The sibling relationship is more important than we can ever imagine. It is a picture of how God created all of humanity to be... family.



David is 5 years old now. I find this hard to believe, since he is my baby. He will be starting kindergarten in the fall. He is definitely ready. This is a kid who loves knowledge. He wants to know everything. He asks so many questions that sometimes my head spins. He wants to know what we will be doing every minute of every day. He wants to know what his brother is doing when he is at school. He asks, almost daily, when he can see Savannah again. He repeats questions to be sure he has the information correct. And, he requires a lot of verbal validation. He will tell me something and end with, "right, Mama?" Or he will do something and immediately turn to say, "Did you see, Mom? Were you watching?"

I am sure he will do well in school. He is already teacher's pet in Sunday School and preschool. One teacher told me he was the only kid in the class who knew Jesus was from Nazareth. I can't take too much credit for this. We do talk about God and the Bible a lot, and he goes to youth and hears his Daddy talk too. But, he also pays attention in "big" church on Sunday and when we watch movies or read stories. He just seems to crave knowledge. I can relate to this. My daddy says I have a rabid curiosity. T'is true. I love seeing this trait passed onto my child.

I just wish I had all the answers for him.


Wednesday, July 1, 2009


Haydn is 7 years old now. So far, 7 is my favorite age. Especially with Haydn. He is such a thinker.

For example, let me tell you about a conversation we had recently. At VBS, they had talked about Moses. So, I was telling the boys about the plagues as we drove to the 2nd day of VBS. Little boys LOVE the plagues. Frogs and bugs and blood. It is, really, a small male's dream come true.

The hardest plague to explain was the death of the firstborn. Let's be honest, most Bible stories, in their full form, are not things we would typically be explaining to our children. But I did my best to tell him how the Pharaoh's son died and how, later, God's son would die as well. Yes, I attempted symbolism and foreshadowing with a 7-year-old and a 5-year-old. I knew David wouldn't get it, but Haydn usually is beyond his age in such matters.

Later, after VBS was finished for the day and we were back at home, I was cooking dinner and the boys had been playing with their Legos. Haydn walked into the kitchen, sat down at the table and announced that he needed to talk to me about Moses. Sensing a God-sent opportunity, I paused my meal and knelt beside him. He wanted to know more about the parallelism of the death of the firstborns and the death of Jesus, so we talked about that. Then, he asked how Jesus could make our sins disappear. I explained that Jesus was perfect and when He died and was brought back to life, it gave us the blessing of having Him in our hearts, if we want Him there. I asked if he wanted to ask Jesus into his heart.

"Not yet."

That was his answer. This is the second time he has asked deep questions about Jesus and then answered , "Not yet." I am okay with this. He is thinking. That is my favorite thing about MY firstborn. He's a thinker.

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